The father to whom I have written so many letters, Rene Descartes, he was alive for quite some time. I talked to him many times over the phone, during the times when I needed him the most (breaking up with Landon/Ironman Hotfire was that major back then because it was only a week before the wedding). He is the sweetest person I know. He is everything I could ever wish for and more. I love him from the bottom of my heart. Through all the letters that will never reach heaven, I have saved myself. Whenever I can’t sleep at night, I tell him everything in my head, to the best of my ability. And this comforting feeling comes enveloping my whole being like I am a kid again and he’s hugging me. I know he loves me so much, until now. He is everywhere, wherever I go, guiding me. I will be forever grateful to him for giving me three older brothers (Benjamin, Alexander and Xandrix) who loved me as much.
My brothers and my brothers-in-law loved my children like their own. They are, without a doubt, the greatest fathers I know. I am witness to the unconditional love they have for their children, my nieces and nephews. And their wives are the most fortunate women. To them, loving their family is as easy and normal as breathing. Nothing can stop them from showing their unwavering affection and compassion. They are truly wonderful men who made our home a piece of heaven on earth. Nobody could understand the pain I’ve felt when I lost them one by one (even when they just changed their names). Overly protective, that’s what they are. Even though they occasionally swear when they are furious, a bunch of kill joys because they are so serious sometimes, and get so crazy I am ashamed to acknowledge them as my brothers, I love them no less. I love them with every fiber of my being, every single day of forever and a day.
Ivory Ysle Descartes (left)
Ivory’s the most nosiest, stubborn and bipolar woman I’ve ever met. But you know what makes her special to me? She’s my sister. She may not show you how much she loves you all the time, but you’d know it’s there through her actions. I love practically everything about her.
Vereesa Nyx Descartes (middle)
Vereng is more than just my niece. She’s my friend and a sister to me as well. She’s the someone I call late at night just to rant about my life, the someone I call when I need someone to talk to or when I just want to say random things. She accepts me as I am and I love her just the way she is.
Hyacinth Athena Descartes-Houghton (right)
Hyacinth has been more than just a sister to me. She became my aunt, my mom, my sister, my sister-in-law and my friend. Despite being too complicated to handle on my own, I still love her to death because she’s been with me since the time I was getting to know myself and I don’t know if I could ever stop loving her.
Azaleia Cynthia Houghton (right)
Azaleia is adorkable. She’s sweet, cute and lovable without even putting the effort to be. She’s everything I want my future daughters to be. She’s absolutely perfect to me and my life’s never going to be the same again without her. I love this woman to death.
Annicka Descartes (left)
Annicka is sweet, adorable and bubbly. She’s practically the most innocent person I’ve ever met. It’s not that hard to love her. She’s beautiful inside and out. And all those people that she loves is lucky to have her. I love her so much that it makes it hard for me to describe how much I do.
Eden Descartes (middle)
Eden is one of the funniest, sweetest and most supportive friends you’ll ever have. She’s honest, she’s trustworthy, she’s kind and she can be mean too if she feels like it. She’s now one of the people I trust the most and I feel so lucky for that. I love this woman despite her crazy antics.
Karya Dathomir/Keeva Katrice Descartes (right)
Karya is one of the sweetest, loving and supportive people in my life. She’s trustworthy, she’s a listening ear and she’s fun to be with. She’s a lot more mature than her age and sometimes, it surprises me to see her maturity especially when I talk to her about my problems. I love practically everything about her.
Adrie Kryptonite (left)
Adrie is one of the many persons that I’m always going to adore. She’s funny, she’s weird, she’s loving and she’s patient. She’s one of the many people who has suffered from my constant ranting, yet she still chose to stay and I don’t know how I could ever repay her for all the love she’s ever given me. I love her so much that not even an ocean could compare to it.
Druella Descartes (middle)
She is the best and most gorgeous mum ever. She’s sweet, supportive and loving. She has the most compassionate heart I’ve ever seen in the world and there’s no doubt that’s the reason why there are a lot of people who love her so much. I love her more than I could ever show.
Penny Lane (right)
She is the best grandmum in the world. She’s sweet, unique, understanding, fun and loving grandma. She’s one of a kind. She has one of the purest hearts in the world. She has a big heart and is loved by many. The love I have for my grandmum can never be put into words.
Alana Hyaleia Descartes (left)
Alana is my mini-me. She’s been my daughter since 2011 and she’s the daughter I’ve had the longest under my care. She has many traits that she inherited from me but the ones traits that stand out are: annoying, bipolar, mushy, supportive, understanding and a listening ear. My love for her is infinite and she’s always going to be my baby girl no matter what.
Romeo Fin Descartes (middle)
Romeo is the son I’ve had the longest under my care. He’s sweet, understanding, loving, supportive, obedient and honest. I’m proud of who he is now and who he will be in the future. He’s always going to be my baby boy and I love my little boy more than anyone could ever imagine.
Alaric Houghton (left)
Alaric is one of the best guys in the world. He’s sweet, he’s affectionate, he’s caring, he’s protective, he’s understanding and he’s a gentleman. The one thing I like about him the most is that he likes to spoil me a lot. He has a big heart and I’m proud to call him my brother. The love I have for this man is as high as the heavens.
Axl Descartes (right)
Axl is practically everything I need. He’s my doctor, my shield, a listening ear, my mentor, a confidante, my overprotective brother and a father-figure to me. He’s no superman or batman because he’s even better than them all. He’s a gentleman, he’s sweet, he’s affectionate, he’s compassionate, he’s understanding, he’s patient ane he’s selfless. He’s absolutely perfect in my eyes and I couldn’t ask for a better brother than him. My love for him has and always will be as infinite as the stars.
I know you cannot read this, but hey, maybe Heaven has a wifi and a computer. Maybe Archangel Gabriel told you that Klei and your family misses you while you’re on your journey there. We don’t know each other that much, because I was a frosh in the family. We have no special bonding time or…
Sometimes being a Brother is even better than being a Superhero.
I started the day with a cup of hot chocolate and one litre of tears. Even waking up is torture. I should face the first day of being without you — that I will not be waiting for you. You are never coming back. We have lost your mortal presence. Honestly, I’m not yet okay with it. I thought two…
I don’t remember much about you, all I know is you’ve made a great impact in our lives. Your strictness made me set the limits I needed, and though it had me intimidated, I am certain those are done for great reasons.
Tito, I wasn’t able to say sorry to you. Apologize for being such a stubborn…
“Dear kuya Axl, remember the first time I talked to you? I was so shy and I really don’t know what to say. I asked if I could say ‘I love you’ and I asked if I can hug you. Remember what you said? Remember what you said? You said “stop askin me things like that. just feel free to do it. loveyou. ” You are the sweetest. I like your hugs. You even asked me if I want more hug after. (shit, i’m gonna cry) I was so glad, that I had a brother like you. And then you sent me a message saying that you couldn’t see my reply. Some wouldn’t bother, you know, whether one replied or not. But you did, heck, i thought you’re not going to reply because I am just a “frosh” in the family. You must be shocked at my response. It’s for Zuckerberg, not for you. The next day, i greeted you good morning. I was hoping for your reply before I log out. The whole day, I did. I waited and then thought that “He’s busy. He’ll reply soon. Don’t worry, Klei, don’t worry.” I got your response 3 nights after. After that, I have come to learn that Kuya’s reply will be 3-4 days after your last post. Our last convo was about your soon-to-be wife. I was the last one to reply. I didn’t know. I kept on waiting. Every time I go online, I would look at my messages, hoping the see that you replied. You didn’t. And now, you cannot. You’re unfair, you know. From the day you welcomed me, I wished for more memories. More kulitan, asaran time with you. HECK I LOVE YOU. I FELT IT. THE BOND. WHY??? I MISS YOU. SO MUCH. I love you Kuya, I love you. We love you. We will never forget you. Fuck, I would do anything for your one last hug..” — Alexis Descartes
“Kuya James Madrigal/Axl Descartes. I’m so thankful. Thank you, thank you and thank you. It’s never ending, I guess. I may not be that close to you but God know’s that you are one of my favorite kuyas. Without you,I may not be Amberleighn Descartes, I wouldn’t be part of your family. It really is a surprise, for me. You fought a good fight kuya. It has been 2 years with you and I guess it would be until forever. You will always be remembered. I promise. See you soon, kuya. I love you Kuya Axl/ Kuya James.” — Amberleighn Vernice Descartes
“Tito, the first time I talk to you parang tatay kita kasi sa mga words mo we feel protected. I wish that you’re still alive and continue protecting us. Tito, sana kung nasaan ka man please guide and watch us, don’t worry Tito you’ll always be in our heart and mind. May your soul be rest in peace Tito Alexander Descartes!” — Kendria Jeuliette Descartes
“Dear Tito Axl, James, I know you don’t see this physically but spiritually and in our immortal memories, you lie and God has simply made a prince out of your journey. You will always pass our minds every time and even though I don’t know you well, you will be the best Tito of all times. Dude, we are all happy that you have marked your names in our hearts. And we shall keep it marked until God takes us our own life. You’d better guide us, Tito. You’ve been alike to a legend. We will always regret each passing time of you not being here, but God judges, we have no other choice but to accept it. We will get over it eventually. I know you want us to be happy and we wish you to be happy there with the stars. We love you, Tito.” — Romeo Fin Descartes
“I knew that he was a great man though I never got to meet him, and what a shame that is. But just by hearing what our family has to say about him, it shows that he was indeed very protective when it comes to his family and I guess that’s what they loved and still love about him. So to tito Alexander Descartes, our family’s SUPERMAN; You took your cape and flew to paradise. You’re now in a better place. A place where villains can’t reach you. A place where we know that you are safe in His hands. Rest in peace, tito.” — Alese Descartes
Dear Tito Axl,
Tito Axl, until this very moment, I still can’t believe that you’ve already left us. Left us for good. I remember that just a few days ago we were talking about how we’ve been after a long time that we didn’t talk. We’re talking how fun it it to see the family bond like before. I remember teasing you about the “Search for Axl’s wife” and that was the last time I talked to you. If I knew that would be the last time we’d be talking I would’ve bugged you to continue talking but who would know what’s about to happen. I can’t believe that you won’t be around anymore. The family wouldn’t be the same without you. No more overprotective yet very handsome tito/kuya/daddy to remind us this and that, to cheer us up when we need it. You’re there for everyone caring, loving, supporting and protecting us. You’re definitely the best tito in the world and I’m very lucky to have you as my tito. I love you, tito Axl. I’ll never forget you. Rest in peace.
Dear kuya Axl,
Usually I have so much to say, but right now I can’t even put any words together because I feel sad and depressed. I still honestly can’t accept that you left us because you weren’t supposed to. It makes me feel sad knowing you won’t be around anymore and it’s never going to feel the same without you again. And I can’t believe that it ended this way. I’m going to miss you and every moment we had with you. Thank you for everything—for all those times you became the listening ear I needed; for those times that you became my doctor whenever i was in pain because of my hyper acidity or asthma; for all the love and care you gave me; for supporting and believing in me; for always being so patient with me despite my constant ranting; for always being so understanding; for always being there for me when I needed you. I have so many things to be sorry about because I know I made a lot of mistakes and you don’t know how much I regret that I wasted so much time. You’ll always be the best and most handsome, protective and father-like brother and friend. I love you, kuya. I’m never going to forget you. Rest in Peace.